it might be colour, the technicolour of autumn-ness, it is often chocolate, spending money online, even the nicest most natural and eco friendliness costs more than is available to spend, wanting tidiness or maybe cleanliness at ridiculous costs, even that of sanity, more time to read in bed, although perhaps i lie down enough as it is, a 12 hour a day sleep habit is a big luxury, more of everything and bizarrely less of everything, almost simultaneously, thinness, constant healthiness, wool, stashed, and babies of course (several), small holdings and gypsy caravans and homes with shiny wood floors, a veg garden as far as the eye can see, animals (ones that clean as they go - since it's all a dream), and mostly, here there and everywhere beauty visable in everything....
protect me from these ridiculous thoughts as they flit and go. beauty is something no one needs protecting from. a saviour. is free and can be just about every place you care to look. expansion and giving and receiving all in one. go outside, it's all there, always.
